Monthly Archives: June 2013

REALITY

My heart was pounding.  My head was aching.

The cold concrete slid roughly across my bare feet. With each step, my legs became a greater weight.

The icy air slithered through the holes in my shirt, silently grazing my skin.

How did I get here?

Questions were racing through my mind. I had no time to find the answers. More and more empty holes were being created in my fragile universe.

I felt a swelling emotion coming up through my body. Starting at my toes, it pummeled upwards consuming every inch of me. The feeling expanded in my chest and begged me to let it escape.

Unwillingly, the tears began to roll down my face.  My body trembled as the swell completely took me over.  Tears blinded my sight.  My toes hit imaginary cracks in the familiar sidewalk.  I stopped.  I cried harder.

The past two days had been a nightmarish blur.  I was confused, but most of all I was scared.

I am not who I thought I was.

How did I get here?

My throat croaked as I let out a low moan. I slowly lowered the rest of my body down onto the pavement.

Did that really just happen?

I pulled my legs up to my chest and thrust my head into my knees.  I could feel my wispy hair swirling around with the wind. My eyes tried to focus on the crooked pavement.  I shook with a million emotions racing through me.

How?

My shirt smelt of a sweet scent, a familiar scent. My sister’s favorite perfume. That made me cry harder.

Is this the end?

It felt like it.

I wrenched my head back from my knees.

God, why me?

My body started wrenching awkwardly as if the emotions themselves were trying to literally pull themselves out and enter the world. The tears slowed as I gasped for air.

My mind began to move slower as my breathing became patterned.  I lowered my head all the way to the concrete.  I noticed the dark, white billowy clouds above me. They moved so slowly, so….quietly.

For a moment, I thought the sun might come out. But within that same thought, a white speck caught my eyes. It was snowing.

I watched the snow gently sway down from the sky. The specks sat silently upon me but were soon gone.  Their brief presence left small dark circles on my clothes.

How did I get here? That was the first question I wanted to answer.  A question with what seemed like infinite answers. My choices had lead to such a solution.

I watched as a speck daringly tried to place itself in my eye, but I was quicker.

How did I get here?

JUST FINISHED: Gone Girl

Author: Gillian Flynn

Genre: Suspense

Rating: 4.5 out of 5 stars

I could not put this one down. It is a fantastic psychological thriller. Flynn takes you on a crazy train, picks up full speed, and does not stop.

The novel is written using an intense first person point of view with each chapter rotating from the viewpoint of husband and wife. I always love this style of writing as it makes the reader feel like they are literally inside the main character’s head. You know their thoughts and opinions about everything; a good choice considering the ending theme on this one.

The first half of the book is a rotating time frame with the husband’s story being in the present and the wife speedily catching up to the present time frame. The last half of the book is all in the present. Flynn had to be extremely crafty in telling each character’s story and timing when exact information had to be released to the reader. It kept me very absorbed in the book because I found myself reading one chapter and then having to read the next to see what was going on with the other character. Like I said, I couldn’t put it down.

My only beef was with the ending. Now, I don’t want to spoil anything, but I will say I didn’t quite get the satisfaction out of the ending that I would of liked. I wanted something a little more savory, if you will.  Just my opinion.

This is definitely a book I will suggest to others to check out. It is a quick read (if you don’t put it down!) and will keep you very entertained.

JUST FINISHED: The Serpent and the Rose, The Golden Rose, and The Last Paladin

Author: Kathleen Byran

Genre: Fantasy (three book series)

Rating: 3 out of 5 stars

As I said on my About page, I will post every once in a while about a book I finished to give my pros and cons. Here is my first go at it:

 I’ve just wrapped up the three book fantasy series [The Serpent and the Rose, The Golden Rose, and The Last Paladin] by Kathleen Bryan. Now, I hadn’t read a fantasy novel in some time, the last being the Harry Potter series by JK Rowling. And that was quite some time ago. That said, this series was a great change in pace from what I had been enthralled with in the past year.

What I enjoyed most about this author was her creativeness to the idea of magic. It was a new take from what your standard fantasy book would give. In these books, magic was more of a working that actually could show itself as a piece of glass. In addition, the magic itself seemed to have its own life/soul within the people that could ward it.  

I thought the plot was a little slow to move and some sections a bit repetitious. Bryan also had too much foreshadowing for me, leading to figuring some items out way before the plot brought you to it. That destroyed a  little bit of the reading wonderment for me. Bryan also had a tendency to “jump scenes” as I would put it. Maybe it was just purely her intention, but I often would have to reread a few paragraphs to try to see exactly how we got from point A to B.

Overall, it was an enjoyable and fun read. Still not anywhere near my top tier of fantasy favorites, but it kept enough intrigue in me to get through all three books to the finale (which was, as every three book series ends, an epic battle).